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Bo in namoish jangi bud, onro na tobi didan doshtu na toqati shunidan. Hamin ki titri “Iztirob” mebaromad ba badanash murgak medavid. Sadoi musiqiash ba gushi u badtar az tarkishi bomba merasid.

“ – Boloi sukhta namakob ast in namoish! – bo alamu dard meguft vay. – CHaro ba dilhoi zakhmin boz jarohati nav zam menamoyand?”

Ammo…

Bale, ammo on ruz in namoishro mebinad u. Zero simoi shinosero dida, ba pisarash nido mekunad:

– Ist! Nakush! Mon!

Ha, Adolat hamon folbinzanro mebinad. Va chi harfu sukhane meshunavad. Folbinzanro doshtaand, jazo medodaand, sud mekardaand. Adolat ba didavu shunidaash bovar namekunad. SHoyad khob mebinad. CHashmonashro sakht pushida, az nav mekushoyad.

– CHaro ba in roh rafted? – mepursand az folbinzan.

– SHayton beraha kard, – darhol javob medihad u. – In hama kori shayton ast! Lanat ba vay, lanat!

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YAke az kuchahoi purodami shahri purgavgo. Ana, dar kanori hamin kucha, dar zeri chanori pir, ki barghoyash az changu gubor khokistari shuda budand, zani nihoyat kharobu logare menishast. Dar simoyash gamu anduhi buzurge naqsh basta. Peshi poyash chand qutti sigor, yakeash kushoda, gugird, saqich, pufak va oftobparast. Hamai inhoro boloi kursi nihoda, khudash rui zamin nishastaast. Va bo chashmoni mahzun ba rohguzaron menigarad. Bo sad umed menigarad.

Hama dar raftuo, kase ba u nigoh namekunad. Dilash khijilu ziq meshavad, jismu jonash ba dard meoyad. Hama jo tira va khira megardad, oftobro namebinad. Ba fikr furu meravad.

Zindagi arobaero memonad, ki zanu mard onro barobar mekashand. Mard nomardi kardu ru ba gurez ovard. Oyo zan dar tanhoi qudrati kashidani bori ruzgorro dorad?

Albatta ne!

Ruzgor ba tangash meorad. Va u yak chi-nim chi girifta, ba savdo mashgul meshavad. Avvalho sharm medosht kanori roh nishastan. Rafta-rafta odat mekunad. Holo digar parvo nadorad.

Hofizae guyo dardu jami uro mesurud:

                    Abri dili man havoi boron dorad,

                    Suzishi dilam baqoi yoron dorad.

                    Mardonagii zani zamon mardi buvad,

                    Jonam gami nomardii mardon dorad…

Ordash tamom shudaast. Dar borai gushtu qand hojati gap nest. Tahsil nazdik, ba bachaho saru libosi maktabi lozim…

Javone yak-du dona sigor, javonzane baroi dukhtarchaash chand dona saqich mekharad.

 – SHukr, hazor shukr! – shod megardad, ba ruyash tabassum medavad.

Bad khushnudi ba dilash meravad. Dilash az farah labrez meshavad.

Olam zebo, dar nazarash guyo husni nav megirad. Oftob, odamonro medid. Gunjishkake az sari yak shokhai darakhti boloi sarash ba shokhai digar menishast, chirik-chirik sado medod. Hama jo zebo, dilangez, farahafzo…

Ammo in hama der davom namekunad.

Hamin lahza guyo zamin mekafadu az on militsionere paydo meshavad. Va chashmonashro az kosakhonaashon barovarda, dahonashro pur az khaf namuda, dashnomhoi qabeh medihad. Nochor Adolat ba zorivu tavallo medaroyad. Az in gijinu gazabi militsioner omada, khun ba sarash mezanad. Sup-surkh shuda, ba sari Adolat dod mezanad:

 – Gum shav, q…!

Ovozi militsioner misli tir az gushash daromada, jigarashro pora mekunad. Rangi ruyash meparad. Poyhoyash sust meshavand. Zabonash lol megardad. Odami bisyore jam meoyad. Hama tamoshobin. Bisyoriho bo istehzovu tamaskhur ba Adolat menigaristand.

– Gum shav, q…! – boz dod mezanad militsioner.

Va Adolat bo didai purnamu dili purgam sui khonaash roh pesh megirad. Dar chorsu lahzae istoda, nafas rost mekunad. Tashna bud, araq az saru ruyash merekht. In lahza chashmash ba Mastura meafad, ki obi gazdor mefurukht.

Oh, chi khel mekhost, ki yak istakon obi sard nushad!

Va taspi dilashro furu nishonad. Ammo zud az in rayash megardad. Dilash nameshavad. Eb namebinad. Salom doda, meguzarad. Az aftash Mastura ba yak tangai u umed dosht, ki meguyad:

– Ha, Adolatkhon, dilat ba pulat sukht?

– Ne, tashna nestam, – ba Mastura nigoh nakarda, meguyad Adolat.

Lahzae pas bo Ranokhon ru ba ru meoyad. Vay zani zebo, chehrakushoda, hamesha tabassum mekunad. Guyo az modar khandon ba dunyo omada boshad.

– I-i-i, ba tu chi shud? – bo tahayyur meguyad Ranokhon.

Gamu gussa laboni rangparidai Adolatro pushonida budand.

– Vay in qadar obu ado shudai, Adolatkhon? CHub barin khushk shuda rafti-ku?!

Zaboni Adolat ba guftor namegardad.

– YO shuyat namekhuronad?

– E, rui shuyam siyoh! – bo huznu anduh meguyad Adolat. – Koshki, beshuy meshudam.

– Vo-oy, in tavr nagued, Hudo nigoh dorad-e! – guyo bo haros meguyad Ranokhon va tasalloomez ilova mekunad: – Hej gap ne, shukr kuned, boz Hudo rizqashro medihad.

Adolat ohi dilsuz kashida, mepursad:

– SHumo magar az fojiai ba saram omada bekhabar hasted?

– Ne-ne Adolatkhon, bakhudo chizero namedonam. Tinji-mi?

– Tinjii guriston. SHavharam ba Rossiya raft. Ana, du sol boz gumu gur. Nomash dar gur shura, lekin beshui ham mushkil budaast.

– E, ne-e! Nakhod? Hudoyo, in chi shure bud, ki ba saraton omad Adolatkhon? Okhir, ba shavhari shumo hama hasad meburdand-ku?!

– Ha-a Ranokhon, – meguyad Adolat. – Ammo afsus, ki atola dandon shikast.

– Taqdirro bined-a? Ki meguft, ki shumo ba chunin gamu anduh ru ba ru meshaved, Adolatkhon.

– Aslash “khandanda kharsavor” meguyand, rost budaast. Faqat zanhoi shavharashon ba Rossiya raftaro mekhandidam. SHavharaton dar on jo kayfu safo mekunadu shumo in jo joni sagi siyoh mekaned. Ammo bined, ki in baloi bad ba sari khudam omad.

– Ha-a, inro bined-a?

– Tanhoi oson nest, vale chi iloj? Hazrati Bedil behuda nameguyad:

              Zindagi bar gardan aftodaast, Bedil chora chist?

              SHod boyad zistan, noshod boyad zistan…

– Ana hamin khel “chi iloj” meguedu shavharatonro az dast medihed, – tanaomez meguyad Ranokhon.

Adolat bo ostini kurtaash biniashro pok karda:

– Hayr, taqdiram hamin budaast, – meguyad. – CHi kor ham mekardam? Zamin sakht, osmon baland.

– YO tavba! – dast sui girebonash mebarad Ranokhon. – SHumo zanhoi mahalli tanho “oh”-u “voh”-ro medoned.

– Hayr, digar chi kor ham mekardem?

– Gush kun ba man. To hol ba ziyoni kase sukhan naguftaam. Az beshavhari sad dard az guluyat kharpanja mezanad. YO ne? Muboriza burdan lozim! Muboriza, muboriza va boz muboriza! Tabibi har kas khudash. Ki ba gayri khudat gami turo mekhurad? Hej kas! Gush kun, man ba joi apaat. Sitoraat ba man khush omad. Man ba tu yori mersonam.

– Iloho baraka yobed. YAk umr dar haqqaton duo mekunam…

– YAk folbini zur hast. Damu duoyash chunon zur, ki daryoi Varzoba chappa mekunad. Hudam shohidi zinda, ki chand mardaka az Rossiya ovard. Albatta in korro be pul namekunad.

– Okhir, chi kunam, ki…

– Fahmidam, – zud sukhani Adolatro meburad Ranokhon. – Pul nadori? Eh, joni apa, gam nakhur. O, pul khudash chi? CHirki dast, meoyadu meravad. Vale odamu odamgari memonad. Man ba tu pul mediham.

Adolat ba riqqat omada, meguyad:

– Iloho baraka yobed. YAk umr dar haqqaton duo mekunam…

Ranokhon az hamyonash pul barovarda, ba Adolat daroz mekunad:

– Kadom vaqte ki puldor shudi, barmegardoni.

– O-o… in chi khel meshavad, – dudila meshavad Adolat.

– YAk bor ba gapam khub guy, – isror mekunad Ranokhon. – Gir, shavharat, ki omad, barmegardoni.

Adolat behad shod megardad. Gumon mekunad, ki Hudo rahmashro khurda, bo odami nek ru ba ru ovard. Vale Adolati sodda az kujo medonist, ki Ranokhon niyatu maqsadi khudro doshtaast.

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Pagohii ruzi digar havo oftobi budu sofu begubor. Folbinzan ba suyash yak nigohi kaj afkanda, bo zarda meguyad:

– Baroi shavharat omadi?!

Adolat angushti hayrat ba lab burda, beikhtiyor mepursad:

– SHumo az kujo fahmided?

Folbinzan sar to poi uro noroziyona, bo nigoh palmosida:

– Man folbinam! – meguyad. – Dar olami asror har sire kalide dorad va on kalid dar dasti man ast.

Sipas dardi Adolatro khudash meguyad. Adolat lahzae lolu hayron memonad. Bad ohi sarde az dili purdard kashida, mahzunona meguyad:

– Ha, ana hamin khel nokhushi.

Folbinzan teg kashida, ba suyash menigarad:

– In nokhushi ne!

Adolat yak qad parida, betoqat meshavad. Folbinzan idoma medihad:

– In musibat!.. Kulfat!.. Badbakhti!

Adolat dar vazi nohinjor memonad. Saru ruyashro araqi sard pakhsh mekunad. Folbinzan faylasufona meguyad:

– Mulk be shoh, sar be kuloh va zan be shavhar nameshavad.

Adolat ba tasdiq kalla mejunbonad. Folbinzan ruy tursh karda:

– Hele der omadi, – meguyad.

Bo in gapash, guyo, ba sari Adolat yak kuza obi sard merezad.

– Lekin… man ba tu kumak mekunam.

Ba dili Adolat shulai umed medurakhshad.

– Iloho baraka yobed…

– Ha, osuda bosh! – bo bovari meguyad folbinzan. – Kumak az mo-o… himmat az shumo-o! Fahmo-o?

– A… ha… albatta, albatta… – guyon, Adolat dah somonii Ranokhon dodaro ba peshi folbinzan memonad.

Folbinzan pulro namegirad, bo yak nav hissi nafratu karohat ruy ba digar su metobad:

– Gum kun in pulatro!

– Baroi chi?

– CHi, tu mekhohi maro bikushi?! – nogahon ba sari Adolat dod mezanad folbinzan.

 YAk takkone mekhurad Adolat va ba dilash bim meaftad.

– Magar man devona shudaam? Nakhod, ki man…

– In pulat harom!

Ba nazarash omad, ki saqfi khona ba sarash furu raft. Dar joyash pechu tob khurda, lahzae khudro gum karda, nadonist, ki chi kor kunadu chi javobe dihad.

– Guftam-ku: in pulat harom!

Ba fikri halol yo nohalol budani pul garq bud, ki folbinzan boz dod mezanad:

– Gum kun, khonai maro makru nagardon!

Adolat metarsad, ki pulro bigirad.

– Gum kun guftam, gum kun!

Aknun folbinzan albastii haqiqiro memond.

– Bo puli qarz parihoi man dastgirat nameshavand. Puli haloli khudatro biyor.

Az hayrat badani Adolatro araqi sard pakhsh mekunad. Vale etiqodash yak bar sad meafzoyad.

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– Nakho-o-od?

Avval guyo dahoni Ranokhon voz memonad. Bad ba vajd omada, meguyad:

– Naguftam, ki folbini zur ast. Ne, aknun khudat qoil shudi?

– Ha-a, zur budaast, – andeshamand meguyad Adolat. – Lekin puli halolro chi khel yobam.

– Ha-a, in masalai dandonshikan, – guyo Ranokhon ham ziq shuda, ba andesha meravad.

Adolat ohi badarde mekashad.

– Isto, ki yagon chizi furushi dori, – meguyad Ranokhon. – Masalan, tillovori, mebel, televizor.

– Ha, doram, – ohista meguyad Adolat. – CHi bud?

– Haminhoro furukhta, shavharatro barmegardoni. Ba fikram, in yagona rohi khalosi.

– Rost, – khursand meshavad Adolat. – Lekin baroi furukhtani onho vaqt lozim.

– Hej gap ne, ziq nashav, – mehrubonona meguyad Ranokhon. – Okhir, apaat dar barat-ku. Ana, hamin apajonat mefurushad.

– Iloho baraka yobed. YAk umr dar haqqaton duo mekunam…

Nakhust challashro ba apaash medihad.

– Lekin…

– CHi “lekin”?

– Avvalan, ki in kuhna, soniyan tez furukhtan lozim, – meguyad Ranokhon. – Baroi hamin chand sume ki kardand, mediham. CHi gufti?

– A… ha… albatta, albatta… – guyon, Adolat rozi meshavad.

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Folbinzan folro bo tilovati in duo ogoz menamoyad:

– Bismillohir rahmonir rahim. Ba haqqi haft bismilloh. Ba haqqi lo iloha ilalloh. Ba haqqi Muhammad Rasululloh. Ba haqqi Bahoviddini balogardon. Ba haqqi Hojai Hizri alayhissalom. Ba haqqi pironu pariyon. Oh, oh! Uro mebinam!..

– Kiro?

– E, jim shin-e! – ba sari Adolat dug mezanad folbinzan va boz idoma medihad: – E, noshud-e! E, nomard-e! Hayfi tu-e!..

– Hayfi ki?

– Hayfi shuyat! – meguyad folbinzan. – SHuyat dar ogushi parizode kayfu safo dorad. Oh, on dukhtar chunon nozanin, ruy mohtob, muy oftob! Dar ogushi u shuyat obu ado, na gami imruz doradu na gami fardo.

Nogoh Adolat figon mekashad. Folbinzan bazur uro orom mekunad.

– E, tu jinni buday-ku?!

– Ho, nomusulmone! Man in jo khuni jigar khuramu vay on jo ayshu ishrat karda gardad?!

– SHud! In jo joi dugu pupisa ne. Ba Rossiya ravu dugu pupisaatro kardan gir.

– Iloji uro bargardondan hast?

– Nest!

Adolat pakar meshavad. Guyo folbinzan yak kuza obi sard az sarash rekht. YAkh mebandad tamomi badanash. Bad ba khud meoyadu bazur ba zabon meorad:

– Okhir, dar dunyo kori beiloj nest-ku.

– Albatta hast! – meguyad folbinzan. – Ki guft, ki nest. Lekin ba tu vazbintar meaftad.

– Maylash, – meguyad Adolat, – chi qadare, ki naaftad, man rozi.

Banogoh folbinzan: “Vah!” – meguyad.

– CHi shud? – yak qad meparad Adolat.

– CHi shud, chi shud? – bo qahr bini inj mekunad folbinzan. – Parihoyam ranjidand, qahr kardand, ru tofta raftand.

– Baroi chi?

– Haqi folro kam dodi, – bo dimogi sukhta meguyad folbinzan.

Adolat okhirin pulhoi angushtarinro ba folbinzan medihad.

– Pagoh yak qabza pashmi buzi safed va du qabza pashmi buzi siyoh girifta biyo, – meguyad folbinzan.

On ruz Adolat boz yak angushtarashro ba apaash Ranokhon medihad. Va ruzi digar ba nazdi folbinzan meravad. Folbinzan pashmi safedro bo pashmi siyoh mebofad. Bad onro otash mezanad. “Kokul” mesukht va dudu buyi galizi on ba fazo mepechid.

– Buy kun! – ba Adolat amr mekunad folbinzan.

Adolat buy mekashad. Nafasash megardad. Pai ham chand bor mesulfad. Az didagonash ob jori meshavad.

– Pagoh du qabza pashmi buzi safed va yak qabza pashmi buzi siyoh girifta biyo, – ba Adolat meguyad folbinzan.

Adolat harfe nazada, az khonai folbinzan badar meravad.

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– SHavharat mekhohad bargardad, ammo…

– CHi, Hudo rozi nest?

– Ne, Hudo rozi ast, – meguyad folbinzan. – Vale shayton khalal merasonad. SHaytoni lainro dur sokhtan lozim. Hamin ki shayton dur shud, tamom, vassalom! SHavharaton dar khona!

Baroi dur sokhtani shaytoni lain Adolat chizhoyashro yak-yak ba apaash Ranokhon medihad. Pisarchaash hayron shuda, mepursad:

– Ocha, charo hama chizhoyamonro furukhta istodaed?

– Otaatro az Rossiya barmegardonam.

– Ur-ra! Otaam meoyad! – az shodi dod mezanad pisarchaash.

SHab pisarchaash tab mekunad. Vay dar otashi tab mesukht va aloi meguft:

– Ota biyo! Tez biyo!

– Otat meoyad, pisarjon, meoyad, – meguft Adolat.

Pisarchaash tez-tez nafas girifta, meguft:

– Otam meoyad!

Az dili Adolat meguzarad:

– Az aftash shaytoni lain dur shud!

Ruzi digar folbinzan ba u khabari khush merasonad:

– Tamom, shavharat meoyad!

Adolat gul-gul meshukufad, ki aknun orzuyash jomai amal mepushad. Pas az chande az shavharash khat meoyad. Vay dar khat Adolatro se taloq doda bud.

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Ba gushi Adolat qar-qari zog merasad. Dar joyash istoda, ba shokhi darakht menigarad. Zogi siyohe nulashro ba navda zada, uro mepesond. Hangi dastonash parida, khaltai dastash ba zamin meaftad.

Zog ba holash mekhandad: qar-qar… qar-qar…

– E ruyat dar gur, – meguyad Adolat va khaltaashro bardoshta, rohi meshavad.

Az nazdi restorane meguzasht, ki nokhost chashmash ba du kas meaftad. Dilash yakbora tah mekashad. Tarhi chehraash tamoman digar meshavad. Ne, vay hej bovar namekunad? Nakhod ki folbinzanu Ranokhon boshand? Adolat ba onho durustakak sincha mekunad. Rosti, ki folbinzanu Ranokhon!

Badani Adolat vajarros mezanad. Jon az dastu poyash mebaroyad, khalta boz az dastash ba zamin meaftad. Ohista-ohista guyo boz jon megirad. Folbinzanu Ranokhon baso khushhol budand. Menushidandu mekhandidand.

Bori vaznini gamu kulfat pakhshash mekunad, dilash guyo ba zamin mezanad, olam peshi chashmonash torikiston megardad.

– Oh!

CHunon “oh” meguyad, ki hama rohguzaron az roh istoda, ba u menigarand. Adolat sakht fireb khurdanashro aknun durustakak mefahmad va gazabash jush mezanad.

– Makkoron!.. Nobakoron!.. – meguyad Adolat va mekhohad daromada, niqob az ruyashon bikashad.

Ammo… baroi khud nerue nameyobad. Va du qatra ashki suzon dar rukhsora, meguyad:

– Iloho jazoyatonro Hudo dihad!

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Inak, duoi u mustajob shuda bud. Adolat ehsos mekunad, ki dar vujudash khuni garme medavad.

– Adolat ba beadolati galaba kard! – meguyad u az shodi.

Va khudi hamon lahza Adolat bo barnomai “Iztirob” oshti meshavad.

 18 avgusti soli 2005

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