GARAVGONGIRI

Jangi shahrvandi taqriban shash moh ba tavri zadukhurdi ruyoruy dar dokhili kishvar amal karda boshad ham, az soli 1992 to avvali solhoi 2000-um aholii kishvar dar holi muhosira zindagi mekardand. To bargashtani mukholifon az Afgoniston yak zumra farmondehon bedodgari mekardand. Bad az oshtii milli va imzoi Sozishnomai sulh, jangiyoni mukho- lifon niz ba kishvar vorid shuda, avji bedodgariro ba falak rasondand.

SHabe nogahon khabar rasid, ki Abdulhakimro rabudaand. Man zud ba joi voqea rasidam, ki moshinash giron dar daro- madgohi garajash bo darhoi kushod istoda bud va az khudash nishone nabud. Milisa ham rasida omad, hamaro pursida sanad tartib dod.

In voqea soli 1999 ruy doda bud. On zamon jangiyoni mu- kholifon az Afgoniston bargashta, hamrohashon garavgongiri, terror va digar kasofatkorihoi dar maktabhoi Pokistonu Afgoniston omuzish didaashonro ovarda budand. Takhmin me- kardam, ki uro garavgon giriftaand. Vale mutmain nabudam, dilam ba sad kuchavu tangkucha meraft. CHi fikrhoe az sar namegu- zasht. Ba havli omadam, ki hama hamkoronu kheshu taboron khabar yofta, jam omadaand. Hama ba man nigoh mekardand, intizor budand, ki man chi meguyam. Didani qiyofai khoharbuzurgam, ki khele kohida budu chashmonash az girya varam karda budand, baroyam sangin bud. Man uro khele dust medoram. Hele ziyod! Faqat uro

tasallo dodam, ki man uro meyobam, pagoh ruz shavad, az pasash meshavam. Digar harfe baroi guftan nadoshtam.

Bo khomushi shabro dar kursiho nishasta, ruz kardem. Sahar ruz nashuda, boz dustonu hamkoroni digar khabar yofta meoma- dand. Hama voqean anduhgin budand, misli man uzve az badana- shonro gum karda budand. Dar on ruzhoi vaznin dustoni ziyod shabu ruz dar kanori oilai mo budand. Tamomi maydonhoi kishtzori atrofi shahr, juyboru rudkhonavu zahburho, bemoris- tonu sardkhonahoro koftand. Doim dar tamos bo milisakhonaho budand. Hech jugivu folbine namond, ki narafta boshand. Man zahmati yakoyaki onhoro yod doram, minnatdoram va hech goh faromush namekunam.

Ustod Sorbon omada, dilbardori kardand va guftand, ki bo dustashon generali amniyat Hudoyqul Hamroqulov suhbat kardaand va u intizori most, saloh ast, ki nazdash biravem. Ba nazdi janobi Hamroqulov raftem va man budu shudi korro gufta dodam. U yak afsarro davat karda, suporish dod va on afsar tamomi juziyoti hodisaro navishta girift va vada dod, ki ba zudi joi Abdulhakimro paydo karda, uro ozod mekunad. Inchunin u ba man omuzish dod, ki dar holathoi zaruri chi guna raftor namoyam. Guft, ki digar ba idorai amniyat naoyam, onho az pasi man va havlii mo nazorati 24-soati tain karda, khuda- shon az hama kor ogoh khohand shud. Man khele ruhbalandu dilpur shudam, ki dunyo sohib dorad va maqomoti kishvar barodaramro paydo karda, jinoyatkoronro jazo medihand.

Vale albatta, khudam ham dast rui dast nishastani nabudam. Naqsha kashidam, ki man bo Zokirjon va Ismoil ba nazdi far- mondehoni mukholifon meravem va yakoyaki onhoro mebinem. Garavgongiri vahshitarin jinoyat ast, ki jangiyoni mukholi- fon ba kishvar vorid karda budand. In hama sol kishvar dar muhosirai jangsoloron boshad ham, hech goh kase az onho in kasofatkoriro hamchun rohi pulkorkuni ba gushai gumonash roh nadoda bud.

Az yoru dustone, ki ba dastgirii mo jam omada budand, kho- hish kardam, ki tamomi sardkhonaho, bemoristonho va milisa- khonahoi shahri Dushanbevu shahrhoi atrofro bijuyand. Havlii moro markazi ittiloot tain kardam.

On zamon dar Dushanbe va atrofi on dastahoi musallahi gayriqonuni amal mekardand. Onho bo nomi sardoronashon maruf budand. Dastahoi Rahmon Hitler, Mansur Muakkalov, Rizvon, Saidmukhtor va gayra bedodgari mekardand. Molu joni mardumro toroj mekardand, rohzani mekardand. Garavgongiri niz yake az rohhoi daromadashon bud. Har ruz meshunidi, ki pisari faloniro, barodari bismadoniro garavgon giriftaand va ba ivazi pardokhti pul raho kardaand. Har nomaqulie, ki khohand, mekardand. Angor inho chovandozoni mugul budand va mardumro buz mekashidand.

YAk tojire bud, ki Alisher nom dosht. U bo umdafurushii mavodi khurokvori mashgul bud. Magozahoyash, ki dar nazdikii istgohi rohi ohan joygir budand, ba nomi «Safar sentr» khele maruf budand. Barodari hamin tojirro garavgon giriftand, mablagashro ham sitondand va boz ham raho nakardand, shoyad kushta budandash. CHashmoni modarash az ashkrezi kur shud. Va dere naguzashta, modari bechora az gam murd.

Muovini raisi Bonki milliro garavgon giriftand, ki bo pardokhti puli kalon kharidandash.

Pisari yak dusti digaramro garavgon girifta budand, ki khudash dar maqomoti nizomi kor mekard.

Makhsusan, vaqte man ba in tabohkori rubaru shudam, bo kasoni ziyode, ki az dasti in hayvonsiraton zulm dida budand, shinos shudam va qissahoi nafratangezi onhoro shunidam.

Bo duston naqsha kashidem, ki yak-yak in silohbadastoni ta- bahkorro dida, pursem, shoyad surogi Abdulhakim paydo shavad.

YAk dusti digarro, ki az dehai Okhtoq bud, rahnamo girifta, ba mintaqai Teppai Samarqandi, ki maskani Rahmon Hitler – yake az in odamsuratoni hayvonsirat bud, raftem. Vaqte ki az kutal bolo mebaromadem, nogoh az pushti darakht du sarbozi musallah baromada, peshi moshinro giriftand. Rohbaladi mo furomada, bo onho salom kard va onho moshinro taftish karda, ba mo ijozati guzashtan dodand. Kame bolotar yak nafari digar rui roh baromad. Rohnamoi mo «Rahmon hamin ast», gufta, ba ronanda Zokirjon ishora kard, ki moshinro nigoh dorad. Mo piyoda shudem va ba nazdi on bulajab raftem. Qadi u taqriban yaku shast, rishash to nof, liboshoi nizomii tanash az khudash buzurgu ovezon budand va boz ham qadi uro pasttar nishon medo- dand. Suratash az siratash behtar nabud. Nomash Rahmon Hitler boshad ham, man dar zehnam uro «pakana» nomidam.

• Ha, eshon, chi gap? -gufta az rohbaladi mo savol kard Pa- kana. Rohbaladi moro, ki az zoti eshonon budaast, dar in jo hama meshinokhtand va «eshon» khitob mekardand.
• Hamin barodaro yak barodarashonro gum kardaand, omadem pursem, ki shumo yagon khabar nadoren? – guft rohbalad.
• Ki bday? Nomush chiyay? – pursid Pakana, ki angushtashro ba biniyash khalonda, chize mekoft. Zokirjon, ki lahjaash ba u monand bud, fahmonda dod.
• Ay hashtodu du giriftanush? – zehni Pakana bandi chize bud, ki takroran pursid.
• Ha, taqsir, – guft Zokirjon.
• Moshinsha nagiriftan? – boz pursid Pakana, yak tori ri- shashro sharti kanda, peshi chashmash ovarda az nazar guzarond va chizi mekoftaashro nayoft magar, ki ba zamin partoft.
• Ne, taqsir, moshina nagiriftand, – Zokirjon javob dod.
• CHitari moshinay? – suoli navbatiro dod Pakana.
• Neksiya, taqsir.
• Bachoi ma mebdan moshinsham miyovardan, mo holi itari- sha nadorem, moda darkoray, – chashmoni Pakana barq poshid va zahrkhandae kardu – khay, ma isu usura mepursum, yoftum gavton mezanum, – guft.

Mo az nazdi Rahmon Hitler bargashta, ba nohiyai Vahdat roh pesh giriftem. Holdonho ba mo gufta budand, ki yake az khunkhortarin silohbadastoni gayriqonuni Malish nome dar rohzanivu bedodgari shuhrat dorad. Mo qaror karda budem, ki yakto-yakto har kadomi on rohzanhoro bibinem. Boyad Malishro paydo mekardem.

Rohro chand joy gavchub guzoshta, nigohboni mekardand. Dar in nazoratgohho vaqte mefahmidand, ki mo ba surogi Malish ravonem, favran ijozat medodand, ki guzarem. Misli in ki Malish dar in jo khele marufu bonufuz bud.

Nogoh az qafo yak moshin basurat omada, az mo guzasht va peshi rohi moro bast. Az dokhili on yak javoni nizomipushi musallah furomada sui mo omad. Mo ham piyoda shudem.

• SHumo ba man kor doshten? – zohiran, in Malish bud. In yak javoni 20-22-solai khele nahif bud. Bovari kas nameomad, ki in hamon Malishi qotil boshad, ki kornomaash khele mashhur bud. Zokirjon fahmond, ki mo ki hastem va charo uro surog mekunem.
• Ma i koroda kor nadorum, mada bgen kira kushtan darko- ray, pulsha bten, mekushumush. Ma adinochkayum (tanhogard), – harisona moro az nazar meguzarond Malish.

In jo ham mo khabare az barodar nayoftem. Ruzi duvum ham hamin tavr ba koftukov mashgul budem, vaqte begoh ba havli bargashtem, malum shud, ki kase ba padaru modaram khabar burda, ki bo man hodisae rukh dodaast va onho khele nigaronand. Hushbakhtona, onho mekhostand sadoi maro shunavand. Agar sadoi Abdulhakimro mekhostand, chi kor mekardam? Vaqte sadoi maro az gushi shunidand, bovarashon nameomad. Modaram duoi nek mekardand, ki khore ba poyam nakhaladu khudovand peshi rohamro kushoyad, ki voqean, in fotihai modar baroi man khele sarivaqti va zarur bud.

Ruzi chorumi koftukov mo dar roh yak kheshovandi Ismoil – Saidbekro vokhurdem. Saidbek kormandi milisai roh bud. Vaqte az hodisa ogoh shud, u ba mo peshnihod kard, ki Komandirro bubinem. Guyo nohiyai Vahdat pur az komandiru hitleru qotil bud. Bo rohnamoii u mo ba qismi nizomii mukholifon, ki chande pesh az Afgoniston bargashta va dar darai Romit joygir bud, raftem. Nigahboni darvoza rohbaladi moro meshinokht magar, ki ijozat dod va mo vorid shudem. In yak osoishgohe bud, ki mislash dar zamoni shuravi dar darai Romit ziyod bud. Havlii buzurge dosht, ki dar on chand nizomi gashtuguzor mekardand va yak nafar bo libosi mulki panjoh-shast qadam durtar az mo, tasbeh dar dast, qadam mezad.

• Hazrat, – ba sui u ishora karda, guft rohbaladi mo. Man gij shudam:
• Komandir kujost?
• Joe, ki hazrat hast, komandir chi darkor! – va rahorah tavzeh dod: – in farmondehi batalioni bistupanjum, hazrati Muhammadi, komandir sardori sitodash Namoz. Bakhtaton omad kard, hazratro hamai farmondehoni mukholif hurmat mekunand, hozir az khudash yori khohish mekunem. Mo pasiham ba sui hazrat ravon shudem.

YAk nafar az nizomiyon zud roh gashta, khudashro ba rohbaladi mo rasond va salom karda, hol pursid.

• Namoz komandir, hamin barodaron yak barodarashonro gum kardaand, omadem binem, baroi yoftanash yordam karda me- tavonem, – guft Saidbek. Zohiran, in hamon komandire bud, ki mo ba surogash omada budem.
• Nomu familiyaash chist? – pursid komandir, misli in ki inho hama zindonhoi garavgonon doshtand va ruykhati nomhoi onhoro ham azyod medonistand.
• Holiqov Abdulhakim, – guftam man bo beqarori.
• Holiq, Holiq, ha, ha fahmidam, ba hazrat gap nazan, man medonam u dar kujost, – guft, sadoyashro past karda komandir sarosemavor.

Man digar hech ragbati bo Hazrat salom kardan nadoshtam. Tamomi vujudi man ba in komandir tavajjuh dosht. Barodari man dar dasti in garavgon bud.

Komandir pesh daromada, moro to nazdi hazratash burd. Mo salom kardem. Hazrat yak mardi qomatbalandi si-siyupanjsola buda, rishi kutohe dosht va to ba nazdash rasidani mo tasbeh gardonda, orom-orom roh meraft. Ajibash in bud, ki hatto dar havlii qismi nizomie, ki khudash farmondehi on bud, chor jon- dori musallah az chor tarafash uro himoyat mekardand, angor u ba hech kas etimod nadosht. Hatto ba khudo!

In Muhammadi Turajonzoda, farmondehi qismi nizomii mukholifon bud.

Mo bo u, ki Saidbekro khub meshinokht, salom kardemu bar- gashtem. Nazdi darvoza bo komandir suhbat kardani shudem, ki guft:

• SHumo pagoh biyoed, man muayyan kunam, ki u hanuz zinda ast yo ne. Kasone, ki uro garavgon giriftaand, khele khatarnokand.

Ba savolhoi man, ki ki garavgon giriftaastu magar name- shavad hamin holo nazdash biravem? – khandid:

• Jura, in guna korho in tavr hal nameshavand. Agar tu onhoro bini, sirrashon fosh meshavad, majbur meshavand turo parronand. Dodaratro ham meparronand. Raved, pagoh biyoed, man to pagoh mebinam, shoyad yak isbote, ki voqean hamon barodarat ast va zinda ast, baroyaton tayyor kunam, – va Saidbekro kanor- tar burda, chize guft. Saidbek omad va mo az darvoza baromada ba moshin nishastem. U guft, ki pagoh vaqti omadan, boyad ba qismi nizomi khurokvori biyorem, zohiran in hamon chize bud, ki komandir ba u dar alohidagi gufta bud. Gayr az in, koman- dir gufta bud, ba man rasonad, ki har guna takudav va tamos bo maqomot, makhsusan amniyatro bas kunam. Az har qadami dar in ruzho guzoshtai man ogoh bud, lanati!

Man nihoyat joi Abdulhakimro paydo kardam! Man name- donistam chi tavr ba Saidbek minnatdori bayon kunam. Dar holati hayajon budam. Guyo allakay Abdulhakimro khalos ham karda bosham.

Fikr mekardam, chi tavr metavonam khudi imruz uro az dasti in vahshiyon bigiram? Ba amniyat arz kunam? Inho to hol az har qadami man ogoh budaand. Az amniyat dar in hama vaqt hech khabare nest. Man bo du nafar rohbalad tamomi komandirhoro gashtam, hatto joi garavgonro paydo kardam, vale az onho hech harakate nadidam. SHoyad nisbat ba tamini amniyati mo – shahrvandon, onho bo korhoi muhimtare mashguland. Vagarna, chi guna mesha- vad, ki in avboshonu jinoyatkoron shabu ruz dar shahru dehot in hama bedod mekunandu amniyatu milisa ziddashon chorae namebinand?

Agar kore kunam, bo amniyatiho vokhuram, hatman ba garavgon zarar merasonand. CHi boyad kard, chi, chi???

Maynaam beist kor mekard. Gij shudam. Hama fikrro yaksu guzoshta, az Zokirjon khohish kardam ba havli ronad, mekhostam az hama pesh ba khoharam khabar diham va kame ham boshad, uro orom kunam. Begohiruzi ba khona rasidem va ba khoharbuzurgam khabar dodam, ki joi Abdulhakimro paydo kardem. U ham ba savolboron sar kard, ki khudam charo uro nadidam, charo imruz khalos nakardam? U ham misli man khele soda pindoshta bud. Fikr mekard bozii kudakonai «rustshavakon» boshad. Agar joi kase oshkor shud, u hamon zamon boyad az panohgohash baroyad. Man tamomi khatari vaziyatro dark mekardam, vale nametavonistam ba u fahmonam, bechora be in ham zajri ziyod kashida bud. Man ba u faqat inro guftam:

• Joi u paydo shud, pagoh nishonaashro ba mo medihand, bad pul doda, khalosash mekunam, tu orom shav!

Dar asari chor shabonaruzi bekhobivu nimbedori imshab khobam burda mondaast. Subh nadamida, az takon bedor shudam, u hamon tavre, ki shab nazdi takht nishasta bud, hanuz ham hamon tavr nishasta budu maro bedor mekard.

• Hez, khez, vaqti raftan shud.

Berun hanuz torik bud, shoyad soat 4-5 buda boshad. SHabi daroz mija tah nakarda bud, fikr mekard agar bikhobad, mo der mekunem.

Mo ba moshin nonu gushtu digar masolehi khurokvori bor karda, ba Vahdat ravon shudem. Komandirro dar qismi nizomi paydo nakardem. Guftand, ki u dar khonaash dehai Buzbit budaast. Hurokvoriro supurda, ba dehaash ravon shudem. Dilam ba sad kucha meraft, oyo komandirro dar khonaash paydo mekarda boshem? Man on qadr betoqat budam, ki ba har deha, ki nazdik shavem mepursidam, ki oyo hamin dehaash ast? Saidbek – rohbaladi mo ba man mefahmond: in dehai CHirtak ast, badi 4-5 kilometr ba Turkobod merasem, ki khonai Hazrat on jost, az pasi on dehai Buzbit meshavad, ki bo Turkobod ba ham chaspidaand. Vaqte mo ba nazdi khonai komandir rasidem, u dar nazdi khonaash ba yak guruh, ki az moshin bor mefarovardand, rohbari mekard. Moro dida, nazdi mo omad va guft:

• In barodarat dukhtur budaast-a? Hele bachai shukh budaast. Bo bachahoi mo uns giriftaast, – az dahonash baromada raft.

Man digar isbote az on, ki Abdulhakim dar dasti in gu- ruhi jinoyatpesha ast, namekhostam. Malum bud, ki u dar dasti haminhost. Guft:

• Man bo Vosit suhbat kardam, – guyo man Vositro meshinokhta bosham – u meguyad yak million dollar biyorad, raho mekunam. Barodarat dar dasti Vosit dar YOvon ast, – ishtibohi khudro ruypush kardani shud, ba man bodiqqat zehn monda.

Man zud khudro ba dast giriftam.

• Komandir, in pule, ki megued, agar hatto mavjud boshad, jam kardanu ovardanash kori oson nest. Man hama chizamro sarf mekunam, ki barodaramro bikharam, vale chize gued, ki mantiqi boshad, – guftam.

Afsari amniyat va digar koraftodagon ba man yod doda bu- dand, ki ba sharthoi onho rozi nashavam. Dar holi rozi shudan, onho har zamon shartro tagyir doda, puli beshtar talab kar- danashon mumkin bud.

• Moshin, khona hama chizi doshtaamro mediham, vale in sharti shumoro ijro karda nametavonam, – ilova kardam man.
• Vosit hama koratro medonad, bo kolkhozhoi Qabodiyonu Panju digaru digar kor kardanatro barodarat gufta dodaast, in pulho baroi shumoho pule nest, – bo istehzo guft komandir.

Va ilova kard:

• Maylash, hashtsadto meori, man Vositro rozi mekunam. Vale agar az in kam gui, barodaratro kushtanashon mumkin ast.

Mo hamakasa az u iltimos kardem, ki bo garavgongiron suhbat kunad, ki shartro sabuktar kunand, mo ham mebinem, ki chi qadr pul jam karda metavonem. U guft, ki pagoh oem. Man iltimos kardam, ki maro nazdi onho barad, khudam bo onho suh- bat mekunam. U az gustokhii man ba shur omada, «rav pagoh biyo!», gufta dug zad. Hamrohonam ham harchand iltimos kardand, ki hamin holo rafta gapzanon kunad, mo intizor meshavem, rozi nashud. Vale vada kard, ki pagoh ba mo navori videoi niz ni- shon dihad, to Abdulhakimro dida, bovar kunem, ki rost meguyad. In yak shevai digari tarsafkani va fishori ravoni ovardan rui aqraboi garavgon budaast, ki vaqte azizi khudro dar bandu zor mebinand, beshtar gapdaro meshavand.

Mo noiloj bargashtem. Fikr mekardam, ki chi guna aqallan yak miqdor pul tayyor kunam. Hech puli tayyore dar dast nadosh- tam, tamomi sarmoyaam dar boloi kolkhozho monda bud, balki qarzdor ham budam. Moshinu khonavu hama bisotro furukhtan vaqt metalabad, vale on ham puli ziyode nameshavad. CHi boyad kard? Az ki yori pursam?

YAgona kase, ki ba zehnam rasid, Jon Sted bud. Begoh ba ofis raftam, to shab ba Amriko zang zada, az u maslihat pursam, bubinam yorie karda metavonad yo ne? Vaqte Jon az qaziya ogoh shud, guft:

– Mutmain bosh, mo dar kanorat hastem, hatman yori mekunem, man bo rohbariyat suhbat karda, ba tu khabar mediham.

Pas az suhbat bo Jon kame dilpur shudam. Pagoh rafta, me- binam, ki komandir chi meguyad, chi qadr poyon mekunad? Tamomi imkoniyatro istifoda mekunam, dodaramro khalos mekunam, ba on tarafash khudo podshost.